Pre-B-Day Pity Party

Maybe I shouldn't write this post. Or maybe I should. Or maybe it just doesn't matter, but anyway I'm going to write it. It's not a pity me post, its just the truth. But I guess it is my own little pity party, just not a pity me party. And it will be boring, so if you're looking for something exciting, look elsewhere. And really, no one has any reason to read this, I just need to write it for the therapeutics.
Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm really not excited. I really actually wish we could just skip it and go on. I know that sounds strange but its really how I feel. I really don't want to be celebrated, to be honest, I feel so inadequate in so many things lately that I don't feel I deserve to be. I'd rather celebrate someone else, anyone else. Plus, I just have some bad blood with birthdays. I've had a couple birthdays growing up that don't make me look forward to birthdays. There is one in particular that I think about that still really hurts whenever I think about it. I'll keep it vague as to when/where/who cuz I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, but I really need to write about it. It still just really bothers me. On one of my birthdays I was going to have a party and I had only invited 7 people because I wanted to keep it small. I was really looking forward to spending my birthday with those people because I really cared about them and I thought they cared about me too. Well one of them forgot, which we all forget things and it was unintentional, so I can't really be upset about that. Another one was having a bad day and so they hardly stayed. I shouldn't he bothered by that one either, but if I'm having a bad day and a friend needs me I'll suck it up and fake it till I make it for them. I guess I'm delusional in thinking I deserve the same thing back. So that one does bother me. And then two other friends came late and only stayed for like 20 minutes and then left to go hang out with some other friends. That one really bothers me. They didn't even tell me the truth about why they were leaving, but I'm not stupid. So only 3 people actually cared enough to really 'celebrate' with me. And I cut it short cuz it was just embarrassing. I honestly thought about faking a headache the whole time so people would just go home so I wouldn't have to feel so stupid. Because of that, I'll never plan a party for my birthday again. It just really hurt because these were like the 7 people who could come who I thought really valued me as a friend, but that whole experience made me wonder. I still wonder.
Anyways, I didn't do anything on May 31, 1990 but take a breath of air and cry. I hardly see why that should mean the day should be celebrated in my behalf. If it should be celebrated at all, my mom is the one who should be celebrated. She was the one that made the sacrifice to bring me into the world. To me, my birthday is a day to thank her, not a day to celebrate my entrance into humanity.
This year I'll be spending the day with the few who I know really do care, and mostly because they want to, not because I do.
Well there's my pity party. If you read this far, you deserve a piece of my birthday cake. I'd send you one, but it would melt on the way.  [Which I really am excited for the cake, Philip's making a homemade ice cream cake DQ style. And Philip is good at making yummy things!]
Please enjoy your May 31, and I'll try to end my pity party at midnight tonight and enjoy mine too.

Enok's Blessing

Enok's baby blessing was held on April 27th at 10am. We did it on a Saturday and just with family and some friends because that was when my family could be there. We were so glad to have all of Enok's grandparents there and one of his Great Grandpa's was there too! What a special day! I definitely shed a few tears!

Great Grandpa Burch with Enok 

4 Generations - still gonna count it even though it's my mom's dad, not my dad's dad...

Maddie&Chloe, Me&Enok, Brooke&Caden

Chloe&Tyler, Enok&Philip, Caden&Jason

McLemore's, Us, Alleger's

Natalie almost 5 months, Enok almost 3 months, Chloe 1 month, Caden 3 months
It was a baby party!

The very next day we went to Orangeville for Natalie's baby blessing. She is Enok's closest cousin in age.

With Granny & Grandpa

Graduation

I finally graduated from BYU!!!!! I seriously loved my time here and BYU, and I just love BYU. It was really special for me to go to the same University that my mom attended,  I even graduated from the same college as her! I graduated with a B.S. in Mathematics Education from the college of Physical and Mathematical Sciences. I also got minors in geography teaching and home & family life. Philip also walked at the April graduation, but he does not actually finish with classes until the end of June. He decided to walk with me in my college's convocation ceremony since the college he is actually from (Life Sciences) is the largest one on campus, by far. That convocation would have been unbearably long.... Philip is graduating with a B.S. in Landscape Management in the college of Life Sciences and a minor in management from the Marriott School of Business. We can't believe that we really are nearly done with BYU! This has been our home (besides some time in Russia) for the entire time we have been married. And it will be strange to move away with no plans of coming back.... 7 more weeks till we move!

What's next you ask? At the end of June we are moving to College Station, TX where Philip will be pursuing a Masters in Landscape Architecture at Texas A&M University. We will be in College Station for 3 years. We are extremely excited for this next phase of our lives! It will be sad to live so much further from my family in WA, but we will live within 3 hours drive of 4 of Philip's siblings, and Philip's parents, and we are excited for that! We also know that this is where God wants us to go, and so we will go!

My dad, Opal, Cody, and Baylee came!

Mom & Dad Roberts came!

Mathematics Education Department

Emily on my left and Melissa on my right, wouldn't have survived the program without them!

Love Melissa! She saved me from death by math classes!

Emily & I student taught together = memories for life!

Spent so many hours of my life in that building...............

Yay for Cosmo!

Someday

Enok, you are the perfect little baby. And you look so perfect when you sleep. Was there really a time I didn't know you? It seems like you've always been my baby. I can't help but think about how someday you'll grow up.... Someday you'll be someones husband, someone's daddy, someone's grandpa.... But today you're just my little baby and I'll always be your momma. I love you and I live for you. Life is amazing.

Philip's Birthday!

I have the best hubby ever. Seriously. He is the most selfless person I know. He will do anything for me or Enok at anytime without thinking of how inconvenient or annoying it might be for him. And he never ever complains. LOVE HIM! He turned 26 this year on March 20! He also proposed to me on March 20, 2009, can't believe its been 4 years!

Birthday date time!

Free burger at Red Robin!

Strawberry poke cake at home! SOOOO YUMMY!

Enok's cute footprints in a heart shape!

Our niece Mallory (Enok's cousin) babysat so we could go on the date! She's the best!

General Conference Weekend

We LOVE general conference weekend. We get to be together for hours, snuggle up, and feel the spirit of God through the words spoken by leaders of His church on the earth today. General conference always has some calls to repentance, some patting myself on the back, and some thoughts that blow my mind. One of my favorite quotes from this conference was

"Marriage is a gift from God to us. The quality of our marriage is our gift back to Him." -Elder Clayton

I feel so blessed to be one part of an awesome marriage =)

On Sunday we were able to drive up north a little bit and visit the Mills. It was amazing to get to see Allison home from her mission. I love that girl and family tons! And Allison made Enok a crochet blanket while on her mission! We love it!!!

Enok Franklin Roberts

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